Tuesday, July 26, 2016

My Beautiful FiFi....

there are only a few moments in your life when you think you simply cannot survive.

today was one of those moments.

I thought I was OK.

when we awoke this morning I saw that my beloved little Poodle was failing.

failing in a way where nothing would work.

she ended her life in the most elegant way.
perfect for the most elegant puppy girl one could imagine.
she travelled with us around the world, she went to funerals & weddings,
she slept on a down pillow right next to me,
she was my best & closest friend,
&, Ned, my deceased husband, loved her more than I do.

I thought I would be OK, knowing I had had her (a rescue doggie) for almost 16 years.
I knew everything has it's time on Earth.
I had thought seriously about it.

But, I wasn't OK.
as we walked into the vet's office I thought I would faint.
walking down the hall I thought I would throw up.

but I held onto her, I loved her, I kissed her beautiful little nose
& I didn't let her know I was afraid, because I didn't want her to be afraid.

she passed elegantly and peacefully into the hands of our Lord at 4:30pm today.

a perfect girl, a perfect dog, a perfect friend who will be missed as long as I live.



Flora Fascinata said...

Marsha, Darling, I haven't commented for so long but am still here admiring you. How very sad. I totally understand how you would feel. Such a long time to have your little poodle. And, frankly, I do love all dogs, but having had a poodle myself there is nothing like their delicate and sweet little ways. Xxx your little Fifi is now over the Rainbow Bridge with my 17 year old Ginger.

Cleo from Jersey said...

Marsha, it is 4:00 a.m in New Jersey and tears are running down my face as I read your sad post...remembering all the times I have had to say good-bye to all of my precious babies. After a long time, I am able to remember them with smiles, but I am still not able to think about the end without falling apart. I am so sorry for your loss. How lucky you both were to have each other. Angela Muller...

Sue Jubinville said...

Marsha, I am very sorry for your loss. I am also a dog owner and animal lover and have experienced your pain. You have my deepest sympathy.

Carol Szafalowicz said...

I am so sad for your incredible loss. How wonderful to have 16 years
to spoil her and give her a great life.
Speaking from experience the way to heal is get another little baby to
fill your life. Big hug, Warmly, Carol from Chicago

ci said...

I'm so sorry for you and the loss of your beloved Fifi. I know you will miss your sweet friend who has been a part of your life for such a long time.. It is so sad, but time marches on and you will be comforted knowing what a wonderful life you gave Fifi. I suspect losing a part of the life you had with your husband adds to your sadness. I know you will smile again though and the sun will shine. Fifi will send you messages in unexpected ways telling you she is ok and you will learn to live without her. My deepest condolences .

pegnek said...

Marsha, I am so very sorry that your beloved Fifi is no longer with you. As a dog lover myself, I know the pain you are feeling and have all the sympathy in the world for you as you go on after this. It rips your heart out to lose your loyal companion and loving friend who is at your side no matter what. I will keep you in my prayers. Hopefully my 14yr yellow lab, Honey, greeted her on her way. Peggy

Audrey said...

Dearest Marcia,
I am so sad to hear about FiFi. The exact same thing happened to me on June 10. My darling Maltese, Skye, was my constant companion. She was with me all the time and when we were at our home in France, she went to every restaurant, shop, friends home for dinner and so much more. She was with me constantly and she too slept in my bed since she was 3 months old. There was no one who knew me that didn't know Skye.

She was also 16 and in seemingly good health and one day she got sick. I took her to the vet and they recommended I put her down as she was full of infection. I couldn't do it so I took her to a specialist who thought they might be able to cure here with surgery. I said okay but she only lasted 3 days after the surgery when she was called to heaven after having a seizure. I did everything I could to keep her a little longer but a higher power wanted her so she went.

I will never get over it and there are days when i cry and cry and cry.

I feel your pain.

Much love,

Babycakes said...

I am so very sorry. As an animal lover I know how hard this is. It really is heartbreaking, but knowing they are free from pain, running free and happy helps. I believe your beloved dog will always be watching over you .

Thistle Cove Farm said...

Dearest Marsha, it's never easy and the last gift we can give them. Memories are good but so is grieving; allow yourself time. I've never regretted those whom God has allowed me to love. You are loved, dear woman, and tucked into prayer.

Deborah Montgomery said...

I am so sorry Marsha. Praying for you, Deborah

SusanMcCauley said...

My heart goes out to you. Letting precious Fifi transition with love and care is the work of a heroine.
Fifi will continue shining loving energy out to the world from her special haven in your heart and all will
have a sense of peace from that special blessing.

Scribbler said...

I am so sorry for your loss of your faithful beloved companion. The loss is so hard to bear, and it's true, you will miss her forever but in time you will remember her in a happy way. I have never gotten another dog, although people said, "Just get another one." I just didn't want to, but you might feel differently.

Julie Mautner said...

Marsha, I'm sorry. You gave FiFi a gorgeous life!

Betsy Duggan said...

Oh NO Marsha �� my Heart Breaks for you �� God Bless you and bring you peace ❤️ Thinking of you ����������

helen tilston said...

Marsha, I am so sorry for your loss of beautiful FiFi. Like you indicated, there are so many memories and people who know her and the joy she brought all who met her.
Sending you prayers.


Mary said...

My heart goes out to you Marsha. Our pets are precious but we know they are not forever. Just be happy with thoughts of the wonderful home and care you gave her over all those years, and the love she returned to you.

Jemimagold said...

Marsha, I'm so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful post about your very precious girl.

Big hugs to you,

Shari (from Houston)

anne kelly said...

I am so so sorry for your loss

Audrey said...

So terribly sorry to hear about your loss. On June 10 my darling Maltese, Skye, left me to become a new star in the sky. She was my constant companion for 16 years and though we did everything possible to save her, we couldn't.

I feel your pain. I find myself crying unexpectedly if I go somewhere that reminds me of her.

Hopefully ,in time, we will be able to handle it better.

Much love to you,

Vicki said...

I am so very sorry for you. My baby went over the Rainbow Bridge last summer after being with me for over 13 years. I still have a a sweet girl of 2 yrs. with me but I still miss him every day. My heart aches for you and your loss. Thoughts and prayers for you.

Judy Castaillac said...

Marsha, I am so sorry for your loss. Our dogs are frequently our best friends. Loosing them is heartbreaking. We are all there for you.

James Dixon said...

Dear Marsha,
As a fellow fan of Emma Chichester Clark's 'Plumdog', I today saw your comment and visited your own blog with its sad news. Last year I lost my beloved terrier Katie. Emma left a very supportive message for me at the time, so I know how helpful such sympathy can be, and I wanted to offer you mine today.
Katie would have loved your blog. She was a remarkably stylish dog, quite different to her sister Jess who was very prim and reserved. In fact like Emma over their lifetime I wrote a number of children's stories about them, in which they became a headmistress and a supermodel! These stories keep their presence alive for me now they have gone. I am sure the spirit of your own dog will remain for you in many happy recollections.
Best Wishes,
James Dixon
PS. The stories appear at ofmisspringleandoctavia.blogspot.com as a serial.

Lauren said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Fifi. Dogs become such great family members and I am sure you gave her a wonderful life.


Anonymous said...

Dear, dear Marsha it is wrenching to lose a beloved pet, our faithful companion. I believe that it is not the end, and that we shall be reunited, the love you have shared will always be there. I dont know if you have heard of the "Rainbow briidge" please google it, it may give you some comfort. My heart goes out to you.


Annie v.

Leslie Harris said...

Marsha I am so sorry and so sad about Fifi. We've buried two family togs and I know the heartbreak and loss you feel. I hope you are comforted by knowing what a love filled life your fur baby had...sending you a warm hug.

La Contessa said...

SO SORRY...................she is with YOU!Keep LOOKING for SIGNS!

Rodney's Saga said...

Sorry for your loss. :(

The joy is that they live with us. The sorrow is that they do not live as long as us.

Emma Chichester Clark said...

Dear Marsha,
I think it must have been Vicki that left the message, but thanks to her I have found you and can say how sorry I am for your loss of the lovely Fifi. I can't imagine anything more terrible and sad and all my thoughts are with you.
Love from Emma

Twelve Riches said...

Dear Marsha
Our fur babies give us so much in return for so little. We are so sorry for you and feel your loss. I'm sure she knows she was loved greatly. Deb.